9.43am – I’m not in my best of mood despite getting to rest and rot for half a day yesterday (which somewhat felt more of like wasting time away). And the emails that I read early in the morning simply makes it worse. Why, oh why? Why does such people exist? Why can’t I have some peace and quiet?
IT definitely isn’t nice to be repeating and teaching the same old thing for 10 times to a bunch of people. And for this last group, I’m not supposed to do it because the managers are supposed to convey the information to them! It’s such a waste of my time if you were to ask me. Sucks.
But then what? Life still goes on and I have to endure all these. Till when? I’m not too sure. Everywhere is the same, that’s all I can say.
1.45pm – The cuz just offered to treat me to a nice dinner at a nice place. Why do I feel so deprived, suddenly? Is it because I don’t have a hub that would bring me to explore on difference places to eat? Or that I’m so tied up with “moulding the future of our nation” that my life appears so totally out of balance? Or that I have a mum that nags a lot? *LOL* Whatever the case, I do appreciate that offer and will take it. I think I really needed such breaks every now and then. It’s not that the brain is too cluttered. It’s just that the clutter can’t get out of that constrained neatness, and that left me, stranded, stagnant.
No idea what I’m writing? It’s alright. Neither do I.
1.56pm – Lunch’s over and I’m back in my seat feeling extremely bloated, thanks to the additional dumplings that my colleague ordered. Shouldn’t have agreed to eat one more. But now that it’s already done and over, I can only suffer the bloated-ness in silence and hopefully that the food will digest soon without leaving too much fats on me.
The discussion before lunch was quite good although all of us agreed on the stupidity of that group of people, who never fails to spoil our days with their incredible intelligence and attitude.
Basically, I’m really sick of my job today and nothing seems to cheer me up. Nothing. Not the relatively nice chicken cutlet that I ate just now. Not my dad whom I saw during lunch time. Not the treat that my cousin mentioned a while ago. Nothing.
It’s probably the dealings with too many idiocy that caused me to go into such mood again, or else it’s because my creative juice had been neglected once more. Sad. Nothing seems to go my way and I’m running out of patience, out of balance. And the constraining on my usage of money probably made it worse. I NEED TO SPEND BUT I CAN’T! Cool down. Cool down. Balance it. Balance it…
2.11pm – Stupidity is probably something that one can’t control nor change, that easily. When the process had been there all along, don’t give excuses for being lazy or ignorant. If you don’t know, just admit it and take the responsibility this time round, and stop blaming on system limitation, for it sounds more like brain limitation.
“The difference between stupidity and genius is that genius has its limits.” ~ Albert Einstein
So you mean its not going to end??!!! O.O”’
2.54pm – Half an hour more to a session which I don’t feel like going. Felt like bringing this lappie down and type away… but that would be too obvious. Gosh… why do I feel so restrained?